have been away

Bubs and I went to Auckland for a few days, to do the sling walk and to go to Labour party conference.


It was great to get away from the normal routine and to meet lots of old friends and meet some new ones too.... Baby girl was really good and it was nice just being her and I.

the slingwalk was awesome... over 70 people attended it, it was a stunning day and I got tomato red sunburn which was so painful (note to self: put sunblock on when you take your cardy off)

Conference was good too, I got elected onto Womens council which is very cool, I havent been on it since 2003.

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me...

I need a bit of help... I am flat and down, but am trying to keep moving, I need some ideas of something I could do for myself to help move forward.. I am trying to be positive and keep moving forward, taking my medication again is helping but I need to do a bit more than just that.

I am going to Auckland for a weekend just soon which I am really looking forward too... so I was thinking about what clothes to take, they need to be smart, but comfortable and feeding friendly, I have 2 sling orders to do then I can create something nice for me, I am a sponsor for the sling walk so want to wear something nice to that, but not ott.... will need to think about comfy shoes too... hmmm I know it all sounds shallow but its giving me something positive to think about and to do for me, I also want to have another sort out of my clothing.. I have far too much.

love D

rough patch

I have hit a low patch... I am pleased though that I saw it coming and have started taking my medication again, I had been off my anti depressants for 12 months which is the longest since I was 17 so I am really pleased about that, it shows that I can do ok with life. But things have been getting on top of me and my anxiety levels have been out of whack so I have started on my meds again. Its been 2 weeks now and they are slowly beginning to work which is good.

I am really pleased though that it wasn't Mum or Ben telling me I was low this time, I saw it coming and took action which was really good. I hate feeling like this and am hoping that once the meds kick in I will start feeling a lot better again, its so annoying I have so much in my life to be grateful for yet I feel like crap.... oh well maybe things will get better soon.

love D

2010 Auckland Sling walk sponsor

I am sponsoring my first thing as a business.. how damn cool is that, click on the link to the side and see where it takes you, love D

wardrobe wednesday.. opps forgot

but iwas wearing similar today so I just swapped the dress to show you what I had on yesterday, its a apron top, but dress length with a self belt and a waterfall skirt at the back.... its made out of an old sari. I wore it with black boots, white t shirt and black 3/4 leggings....

tired grumpy and stressed

I am tired, had have a nasty headache all day and I am stressing out big time... I have had a busy day yesterday with 18 kids here for Miss L's party so had a quiet day today, but my big stress at the moment is more worry actually... I am scared, Miss K is having her tonsils out tomorrow, I know its routine, I know what they will do etc, but shes my baby and I don't like the idea of her being in pain....

so i am scared, stressed, anxious etc, we have to be at the hospital at 7am and things will go from there, I know that it should be fine... but shes so little and shes my wee girl .... and i am just being normal...

earthquake

we were woken on Saturday moring to the news that Christchurch had been hit by a 7.1 earthquake, thank god  that no one died....looking at the photos make me sad, I lived in Chch for 5 years, so each photo of a familiar place makes me fell worse

there have been over 270 aftershocks and its those aftershocks that are doing the emotion damage to people. its so sad and really hard feeling like I cant help up here. This website gives a really clear indication of how often the aftershocks are happening and why people are so on edge...

Our families are all ok, Bens parents places are fine which is great, and my parents are further south in Oamaru so they havent been affected by it.

anyway huge hugs to any of you that are affected and if ther is a way we can help please ask.

my girl is finishing Kindy today

My wee miss L is 5 on Monday, she will start school that day... I am sad about her being so grown up, its a bittersweet feeling as she is so ready to start school, and so excited... shes very philosophical about it, when I asked her if she would miss kindy she said "no Mama, I can just go to the fence and see them," and she will see her kindy teacher when Mr O starts kindy next term....

wardrobe wednesday

this is what I wore today, being the first day of spring so I decided against wearing tights.... the skirt I made over the weekend, its a gorgeous cotton sateen and I am in love with it, the red t shirt I got in a clothing swap and the same with the denim jacket, Mr O wanted to be in the photo too....

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home alone, well with the kids

Ben is away for a week, so its my first parenting alone session with 4 kids, its taking a bit of juggling but I am doing pretty good so far, having music on in the evenings helps, and keeping our routine going is going to be the biggest way to keep things fine....

I didnt want him to go, but am doing ok, was nervous as to how I would go last night, but we did fine, the kids were good at doing what was expected of them.

so one day down and 6 to go.....