very scared

I have my appointment with CMH tomorrow, I am freaking out, I have had two bad experiences with them now so am feeling very wary of it all.

I am also scared of shifting, I shouldnt be but am freaking out about it, I havent started packing, I just dont even know where to start with it.. at least my clean washing pile is now all folded and put away, but thats not getting everything packed.

I am struggling with it all, part of me really wants to move, yet I am scared of the unknown, scared of making new neighbours etc.... just plain scared really.

Part of the shifting process has meant we have decided to get some new things.....

We bought new dinnersets today, we havent had a new one for ages and our plates and cups are looking terrible, so we decided to get a new one. Mitre 10 had a special on a nice plain white Maxwell and williams one, it was 2 sets for $79... so we bought two lots of two, so we can feed up to 16 people now, yay.

why do I blog

I had this thought running around in my head lately, esp after a strange comment on my facebook page that was said in remark to what I thought was just a giggle between cousins.

I was pretty much accused of being "sad and having no life" because I blog etc. so I thought about this over night, didnt write any comment back on the facebook comment and decided that I would write down why I blog......

So here it is.... I blog because its healthy for me.... yes its healthy lol. I find it a really good way to get thoughts out of my head and to understand my thoughts in a somewhat clearer way.

I also do it because I enjoy it, I love reading the comments, I love feeling that maybe some of what I have written will connect with somebody else and make them smile or think about an issue differently. I enjoy it.

I also find it a good way to stop thoughts from over running my head, with having dealt with depression and anxiety I find this a good release that doesnt harm anybody that I live with, it enables me to get stuff sorted with out loading it onto those that I love, sometimes stupid little things will really annoy me so writing them down is better in some contexts than getting all pissy with Ben over it.

I do have a life, its very busy with three kids and a husband who I care and look after, so if blogging works as a release for me then bugger it I am going to be "sad" and enjoy blogging...

So yep I am a blogger and guess what i feel fine about it.